Well, I've tried to do my homework on this decision. Today I spent some time on the phone with the person who just left the moderating position--as well as his spot on the committee. (His leaving has nothing to do with the committee. His church imploded and he got hit by shrapnel along the way.) He gave me the low down on what would likely be expected of me, should I decide to do this. The reassuring thing is that he's outta there, so I felt he was being realistic with me. He did offer to sit down with me (or whoever) and go over the binder of materials that the moderator would need to know about.

I'm feeling some internal pressure to do this. Reverendmother talked about this recently:

the compulsion to say yes to opportunities for fear that if you say no, that the opportunities will start to dry up.

I look around my Presbytery, and I see the voices that get the most airtime, the demographic that gets the most attention, and I wonder if it is because women like me don't step up. Or is it because we haven't been asked yet? Either way, I'm not off the hook here...I have been asked, and I do have a chance to step up. Do I have responsibility to have a tiny part in turning the tide?

Of course, there is always the possibility that it is not all about me...