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2015-07-21 6:51 AM
Work closing End Sep... Maybe forever

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so our mine has given everyone a letter saying that people will be made redundant come end of september we have a choice of 10 options we would like to choice but doesnt mean it will come to be. Ive email the head office an a lookig at about 67k but im taking holidays next week so will probaly be a bit less.
Going to Melbourne to see the sister in law and go up he mountains to see snow for the first time, noah, Logan, Cat and myself are going, the dogs will probalby be put into kennels.
Been sleeping in diffrent bed to the wife for about 4 months now she claims i snore worse since my surgury, and she likes to sleep with the tv on and dont.
still fighting alot, she still askes me to move out almost everyweek now then we make up and we're all good again.
i hate the relationship it has become and its got to the point where we are fighting in front of Logan i never wanted to be in sure a angry relationship but here i am,
i think the girl i fell n love with it gone but i dont want to face it beacuse sometimes i see signs that she is still there.
i can see us breaking up if i loose my job, she belive everyone should have a job and all that jazz, id just be happy to have her and the kids and everything else would be a bonus.
sex life has gone to shit too, still getting it but she may aswel be asleep.
i have told her that things need to change but they arent.
i feel trapped, i have to be careful waht i say around her so she doesnt get angry and when i do somthing new to help her and the kids out i get stuck doing it.
900k debt, two house, two dogs, two kids (only one i have rights to) and house full of valubalues.
yeah im stuck,
im not sure why she still stays with me she knows im not happy and im sure she isnt anymore either juding by the signals.

Logan is starting to stand up with objects like tables and couches so shouldnt be too long untill he is walking and causing trouble.

Noah is almost 6 and is getting better at his speech but it'll take sometime before he can talk clearly.

My Noah is at school a few days a week now and seams to be enjoying it but aparently has trouble paying attention in class, just like me. still only have him one night a fortnight, its hard cat still hasnt came to accept him. i think he can sence it too, i thought by now she wouldve got over it. When people ask cat how many kids she as she says 2 which i think is ok but she wont mention she has 2 step kids aswell. I can tell she gets annoyed when i bring up my kids to her frinds or work mates.

why am i still in this relationship! I wish i didnt love her sometimes.

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