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My newlywed husband said the same thing every morning."You're beautiful today."

One glance in the mirror revealed that it was far from the truth.

A skinny girl with mashed hair on one side of her head and no makeup smiled back at me.I could feel my sticky morning breath tourism training.

"Liar,"I shot back with a grin.

It was my usual response.My mother's first husband was not a kind man and his verbal and physical abuse forced her and her two children to find a safe place.He showed up on her doorstep one day with roses.She let him in and he beat her with those roses and took advantage of her.Nine months later she gave birth to a lb.13oz.baby girl me.


The harsh words we heard growing up took root.I had trouble seeing myself as someone of value.I had been married two years when I surprised myself.My husband wrapped his arms around me and told me I was beautiful.

"Thank you,"I said.

The same thin girl with the mousy brown hair still stared back at me in the mirror,but somehow the words had finally blossomed in my heart.

A lot of years have passed,My husband has grey in his hair business registration in hong kong.I'm no longer skinny.Last week I woke up and my husband's face was inches from mine.

"What are you doing?"I asked.

I covered my mouth,trying to hide my morning breath.He reached down and kissed my face.

"What I do every morning,"he said.

He leaves in the early hours of the morning while I sleep.I miss our morning coversations,but I had not realized that he continued to tell me that he loved me even while I slept.When he left,I rolled over and hugged my pillow.I envisioned the picture of me lightly snoring with my mouth open and giggled.

What a man!My husband understands my past.He's been beside me as I have grown from an ensure young girl to a confident woman,mother,speaker and author.

But I'm not sure that he understands the part he played in that transition.The words I heard growing up pierced my soul,yet his words pierced even deeper rent apartments in hong kong.

This Anniversary Day I plan to wake early .I want to tell Richard how much I love him.He may look. in the mirror and see an extra pound or two,or wish for the day when his was dark and curly,but all I will see is the man who saw something in me when I couldn't see it myself,and who leaves butterfly kisses,even after twenty-three years of mirriage.


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