I guess I'm a little more talkative (typative?) than usual; hence all these posts in the same couple of hours, which probably should be combined into one, but I kinda like grouping by topic.

I'm not sure if I'm projecting my sadness onto friends or seeing a few down lately, but in either case, it's bugging me because I don't know what to do about it.

Ultimately, I realize that I can't be responsible for other's happiness, and if they are really sad, and I'm not just projecting onto them, that they will be responsible for making themselves happy again, but even though I've said that, even on here, a million times, it's a hard habit to break. I do want to do something, and don't know what to do.

If it is me projecting my sadness onto them and it doesn't exist, that's a whole other set of issues that's frustrating. I think I really do see a few friends that are bothered by some unhappy events in their lives right now, and just offering to listen and help is not satifying me.

That's certainly selfish, I know, but I can't help myself right now. I want to do more. Phooey on responsiveness, I want proaction! I want to take their problems and hit them with a steel chair. Maybe some sort of atomic drop or whatever the wrestlers are doing these days.

Somewhat because it allows me to ignore my own issues and not get further with any of them. See, more selfishness.

And I know selfishness isn't the way to help others. But until I can feel satisfied with the right way to help, selfishness it is.