the strange planet inside my head
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CULMINATIONS
culmination: (noun) 1. A final climatic stage; 2. a heavenly body's highest celestial point above an observer's horizon; 3. the decisive moment in a novel or play; 4. a concluding action.
all current events are heading their way towards the inevitable culmination. am i ready? let me ask YOU a question....are you EVER ready?
you may THINK you are... you may even truly BELIEVE you are. but when it comes, it is usually too new, too bright for you to be fully prepared.
this goes for childbirth, (no, not me, silly person, i'm talking generalities here) new jobs, different locations, divorce, marraige, and the ilk.
you think you're ready... you think you're prepared...but you never really are.
that's not necessarily a bad thing, just think...if you were totally prepared and had it all together, what's the point of new experiences? why even bother?
of course you knew this was all leading up to something.
you can feel when a crossroad appears in your life. you can feel the nexus of polarities in their headlong rush towards the goal of culmination. every action stands out in bold relief, carrying with it its own aura, a solarization appears on the mind's retina, you can taste the winds of adaptation and evolution and you open your mouth and nose like a dog hanging its head out the window. you have to embrace it with innocence and wonder or it will crush you and leave crumbs in its wake.
it's inevitable.
****
tina will graduate in three weeks. her father is insistant on attending. the knight will also be there with rings and his solidarity that i have leaned on for almost seven years. donna has set her feet on her own path and has taken several baby steps towards her own life and goals. the nexus approaches and i'm scared. i'm scared and exhilirated, timorous and filled with expectation, and wonderment.
destiny, karma, fate, ka. and while i wonder just how much control i have, how much i can wrest for myself, i know ultimately, it is what it is.
****
so, after much pondering and rumination on the lower level where the machinations of the subconcious rules, i put one foot in front of the other and just keep on, keeping on. trying to trust that i can deal with all the transformations ahead with dignity, self-respect, and above all, the sense of wonderment.
****
either that, or i just have a bad case of gas and i need to reach for the Beano.
:)
all current events are heading their way towards the inevitable culmination. am i ready? let me ask YOU a question....are you EVER ready?
you may THINK you are... you may even truly BELIEVE you are. but when it comes, it is usually too new, too bright for you to be fully prepared.
this goes for childbirth, (no, not me, silly person, i'm talking generalities here) new jobs, different locations, divorce, marraige, and the ilk.
you think you're ready... you think you're prepared...but you never really are.
that's not necessarily a bad thing, just think...if you were totally prepared and had it all together, what's the point of new experiences? why even bother?
of course you knew this was all leading up to something.
you can feel when a crossroad appears in your life. you can feel the nexus of polarities in their headlong rush towards the goal of culmination. every action stands out in bold relief, carrying with it its own aura, a solarization appears on the mind's retina, you can taste the winds of adaptation and evolution and you open your mouth and nose like a dog hanging its head out the window. you have to embrace it with innocence and wonder or it will crush you and leave crumbs in its wake.
it's inevitable.
****
tina will graduate in three weeks. her father is insistant on attending. the knight will also be there with rings and his solidarity that i have leaned on for almost seven years. donna has set her feet on her own path and has taken several baby steps towards her own life and goals. the nexus approaches and i'm scared. i'm scared and exhilirated, timorous and filled with expectation, and wonderment.
destiny, karma, fate, ka. and while i wonder just how much control i have, how much i can wrest for myself, i know ultimately, it is what it is.
****
so, after much pondering and rumination on the lower level where the machinations of the subconcious rules, i put one foot in front of the other and just keep on, keeping on. trying to trust that i can deal with all the transformations ahead with dignity, self-respect, and above all, the sense of wonderment.
****
either that, or i just have a bad case of gas and i need to reach for the Beano.
:)
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