Diary of a Single Mom
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05: Back to School Story (1 comments)
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I am a single mom who has worked almost every day since age 15. I work very hard usually with atleast 2 jobs just so I can provide well for my family. I try to date but since I have been hurt by the 3 men who meant the most to me in my life I tend to have a very high blockade going on. In my dealing with this I have chosen to just date with no feelings atteached and tend to push men away for the dumbest of reasons. Who knows maybe I have had a winner but my stubborn ass refuses to let any man into my heart ever again. I have tried to work on this but for some reason I still revert back to my old ways. I wake every day and get me and my children ready for our day and I head off to work and they head to the bus stop and I work not one but 2 jobs and come home completely beat. My children want a playfull loving mother so I try but yet I have noticed I am not as playfull as I would wish to be because there are always many many thoughts running through my brain. Which bills should I pay this month, how am I going to provide food or any needed things for my children, will they shut off the power and worst of all holidays. I have always pushed through with a smile on the outside so my children do not have to realize how much every day hurts me when I do not get to be the mother they deserve. But in this current economy and the state laws for single parents. I could go on for days about my beliefs of the state laws but really I would love to actually do something about it and I am going to look into it to the best of my availability. I started this journal as a vent for work frustrations and to tell a few funny stories but I think I have used it more to vent my frustrations. So maybe I will have 2 journals, who knows but thats me in a nut shell.
