Since leap years don't happen all that often I figure I should write today.

I just happened upon this: in 19 days I will turn 19 so perhaps after my birthday I should subtitle this blog Your Favorite Annoying Teen: the Final Year? I am still at an utter loss as to what I should rename it....but hey I have a full year, why rush? I mean the name is kind of silly and reflects my fourteen year old self's opinion of itself but it stuck. I don't know why. Because Alimon_Roming was a tad too weird and nerdy...and misspelled and because my name was undecided....and because all y'all older people had cool ass blog names and I was just like "Yo! I'm the little teen here with my whinney emo posts! They'll be annoying! But you love me anyway!" But that still stands true. I do have some(a lot of) pretty emo posts....But whateva yo. I iz koo' anyhoo. Hahaha.

So...um....yeah...

I saw my friend today. Wells is all "Prospies everywhere!"(prospies being prospective students) and my friend was one of them so I had lunch with her and visited a few minutes. I was working most of the time she was on campus but it was still cool to see her. I sort of did the Tour Guide spiel myself but my enthusiasm is pretty honest.
Still, I would rather work the library any day. For one my walking-backwards skills are not that great. Two, my mouth and brain hardly ever make a proper connection, unlike my hands which are pretty much awesome and are connected to the brainage crystal clear all da tyme. YEah.

There isn't much to say in all reality. I've been watching movies, doing homework, going to class, eating bad, and having the "Gah!" moments that are life. Yesterday was a long Gah moment as I was up at 7:00am and didn't get to sleep until like 2am....after I took a pill that makes me sleep. I was vastly annoyed that my body was shreiking for sleep, happy warm knees melting in to the bed and then my mind was all "Haha...I'm not sleeping..."
Body: "Would you shut yo damn light bulb self off?"
Mind: "Nope. This is fun. Buzz buzz. Blink blink. Oo I think I heard a pin drop."
Body:"Whut duh shuz yo? Can you feel how tired I am? Shut off!"
Mind: "Lalala, not listening."
Body: "Screw you. Pill time."
Mind: "Noooooo!"
It wasn't like that exactly but if they could actually converse then that is sort of the thing they'd have. Well actually it would more shut be a divided mind. One half listening to the body ready for sleep mode and being annoyed at the other half being for insolent and ignorant and hyper aware of every sense. That is the worst kind of sleepless.
I slept until 9:30 which is late for me at the moment.

Later in the day, like now, I am still pretty tired and worn out from feeling like I haven't been in my room all week and yet I haven't been anywhere. I'm putting off cleaning up my accumulated mess until tomorrow. I think I'm going to skip my off campus journey as well. There is no point. I have no reason. I should really just do homework anyway. Right? Yeah.
Ugh.
Two weeks. Two weeks and I'll be back home....which of course means nothing really. I won't be relaxing. I know this already.
Maybe I am stressed. Trying not to be but I am. But I can't relax. It is impossible. For such a seemingly chill person at times I am extremely hyper. Meditation is like a hell punishment for me because I cannot be that still or focused on nothingness. Meditation is like constructing geometric patterns or doing something mindless. Like if my hands and logic(aspie?) side are busy then it chills the rest of me out.

Life just takes work is all. But to what? Oh the same old questions repeated by everyone seeking out to find what they are in fact seeking in life. Seeking the reason as to what we are questing and working toward in life.
These people annoy me. John was one of them. "What is the meaning of life?" and his ambiguousness stuff. Very pretty but at the same time a little groundless at times. Depends on my mood. Logical side or floaty Pisces ruling? Logical is all "SMASH! Wow, cynic-cynic-cynic" Pisces is all "Oh wow. Gosh that's so wonderful. Love!" Can you tell who I am right now? *laughs*

I am tired. I should finish my LotR binge and listen to music...and sleep. College gods forbid we sleep.

Peace.
~Lo

(Yes, I did steal my title from Led Zepplin)