Oh my bob....is it spring break yet?

I know we only have four days left after today but really....my brain wants to die. In fact it already has died. In fact a dead brain is really not a fun brain at all.
I'm like "YO! NOT ON A VACATION YET!"

And then once vacation comes I'll be all "Boo....I want to do work."

I think I will use the vacation time to read books for class and do homework. It is not so much a vacation as it is preparing for the rest of the semester.

I'm over my emo-Ben thing and I'm okay with not talking to him while he's in France. It will give me time to rewire my brain.

I owe my hill a visit. I need to do a nature walk here. I am wondering why my brain thinks it has no time when I have been okay before.

I woke up feeling like....waaaaaay crappola this morning, couldn't breathe, joints locking and popping and then in the middle of the day I had a crack on my head realizing "I need to cut this shit out like fucking now."

So rather than wallowing in the disappointment I feel with myself lately I'm going to try damn hard to fix what I have and do better in the future.

I'm just reflecting on what I used to be and what I am and there is no excuse for how I am acting and how I am using my time now. I need to prioritize and stick to it and like...use my damn brain. Whoa. There's a thought. I need to get out of this slump that I have been in.

Like I walked all the time, I got my shit done, I was involved, I was me. Nothing besides my own mind is stopping me from that right now and nothing besides my own brain can make me do it again. So of course I'm going to do it.

Mental pep talks. I go all Rafiki with the stick on myself.

I don't know where my logic has gone, my real logic, not the one that gets muddled with other stuff. I'm glad to have this no-mercy bitch logic back.
Focus. Yeah. That's what I'm getting back as well. It waxes and it wanes and this time I am waxing it on hard.
Gr. Rawr. Neigh. Mah. Bah. *monkey scream* The animals agree.


Oooh and I was going to have a real entry with yesterday's entry but my whole brain was burning. This guy at dinner ignited my anger button and like...yeah...I was kind of a steaming mass of she-woman-man-haters. Anger really saps your energy though. After I had retreated to a quiet place to calm down my knees forgot how to work due to all the energy that wanted to come out of my mouth and fists and eyeballs (it didn't, I stayed in control but whoa).

But now that I am done mentally betch (OMG shoes) slapping myself I am going to get shit done....after I eat dinner. Really!

Oooh and I have been hiding my hair under a hat for the past few days and dreamt of myself from back in the day with short purple/red hair again. That was interesting. But I am not going that short or that color.

Must go now.
Adios.
Peace.
~Lo

OH MY WARD!
THE PAINTED-correction-THE WARDED MAN IS OUT TOMORROW IN THE US AND CANADA!!!

EPPP!

Too bad I have sem. I will buy it next week.

Still, YAY!!!

9 days of YFAT
1 day until The Warded Man