Random thoughts:

By the end of week two of kickboxing and yoga I can almost comfortably touch my toes again, and grab a toe if I push. My biggest challenge in flexibility is the backs of my knees, and judging on my anatomy studies it is due to a tight bicep femoris or my semimembranosus. These are both muscles.

Budgets are ANNOYING! Particularly when you find out they are due...oh three days before. I am pretty ticked at my treasurer. Thankfully we are not spending a crap ton because yeah...WE DON'T HAVE EROTIC BALL and the priciest thing is the dinner party we are hosting.

I have concluded that I am a sex-nerd. This is different from a sex-fiend. I am just...really nerdy about sex, especially this year. And you know what? I don't care anymore. I am a sensual and passionate person and a great interest in and openness about sex is just part of who I am. Prudery never really fit me. I am happy when I talk about sex and it has been one of my longest persisting fixations. I am not a perv or something, I am just endlessly interested like various other things I am into. In fact I am reading Bonk: The Curious Coupling of Science and Sex by Mary Roach and I can barely put it down. I haven't devoured a book this fast in a long time.
So there. I am a sex nerd. Yay.

I am really pleased with my group so far. I am lamenting leaving it at the end of the semester. I feel like I've just gotten my hands into its potential...which is why I am seriously considering getting my hands in sex education after I graduate. I feel like I could be good at it.

I think I am also at this stage where I am really taking charge. Maybe it's part of being a senior but I feel very in control and empowered. I am managing my life with more...precision than I ever have. I like this feeling. But in general I think I just enjoy having authority, as long as I have a reliable team to work with. When people don't do their jobs I become easily frustrated but when they do I am happy as heck.
This ambition is something that I need to keep in check at some moments but in others it is a great advantage.

Speaking of jobs, I really need to work on my resume starting next week.
On that note Matt is STILL job hunting. I think it's starting to weigh on him a bit and the monotony is starting to get to him. He hasn't said anything but I subconsciously sense it. Hope for him.
He and I have a literal Skype date next week since I am going to be busy most of Monday. I suggested that we get dressed up fancy, open a bottle of something tasty and alcoholic, and have a literal video "date."
My brain has been working to think of ways to keep the spark between us while we're at a distance and this seemed like something fun. We've done good so far. It was dang sweet when he sent me a textbook I needed for my acting class and also included a card with laundry quarters taped inside it.
But the Valentines Day package I sent him is pretty rockin. I put in chocolate, Sweethearts, a Valentines Day card with a love letter in it, a framed picture of us from last April and....Legos. Yes, Legos. I was wandering around Target last Saturday trying to think of one last thing to put in his box and decided on a small knight set. Matt and I have a new running joke between us about the Knights of the Round Table and the Legos fit perfectly...along with the fact that he has a large collection of them at home. For the packaging I put in a bunch of crumpled paper with random, spastic, ego boosting statements scrawled across them. (I couldn't find any old newspaper so I made due to a better effect.)

I am really happy lately, in a singing mood even. I suspect it's due to my gym classes and the fact that it's my last semester.

Anyhoo, I'm off to read and then sleep.
Peace.
~Lo