Playing a high energy character can be exhaustive. It's hard to get into if you are tired and very tiring when you come down.

For my Acting I final I am a character that is on the crazy side. In order to "get into her" I have to pitch my voice high, slightly accented, and become twitchy. At the same time I have to attempt to throw my voice across a theatre.
Eeesh. But I like it. It gets easier I go.

Still, an actor's job isn't easy. Characters really can consume you once you are in their headspace. Coming back to yourself can be strange.

My trials in theatre have been interesting this year. I am done with my friend's thesis and it's a relief. My characters weren't hard so much as the exhaustion that is last minute changes and the endless tech.
We didn't have a FULL run through until Friday night when we had our show.
It was a bit nerve wrecking and naturally I had gas and hoped I wouldn't audibly fart. Seeing as I was an angel in the first song it wouldn't really fit. It WAS quite amazing to feel the rush and goosebumps when my fellow actors and I connected. I summoned the power of my character as I never had before and it thrilled me.
In the second piece I was part of it went as always. I was in my crack addict mode and fellow actors were a drunk, a cutter, a bulimic and the demon that tempts us all.
The problem as an actor is you really have no perception of how cool things look because you've done them so many times you are desensitized to it...and well...you're in it.
Having the reviews of "That was so cool!" and "I really liked that part!" is interesting because you're an outsider.

I'm not sure how I feel about the acting experience. Well, wait, yes I do- it's the same as anything that is initially hard for me: vexed and "I'm not sure if I want to do that again." To a certain extent I really do "get it" because it's hard for me to totally half ass anything. As an actor I can figure out how to transform myself and be adaptable and someone else. I am a passionate person and can use it as needed. But it's different. It's a new world for me, one that takes some realization that it is not "reality." As an actor I find that I have to walk a line between "reality" and "stage truth" which is sort of the imagination. You create a world and a life for "yourself" in that space. I had a hard time wrapping my mind around this at first. I need facts and "truth" where I can get them. I can create but creating this "stage truth" is weird- this is a "real person" I am playing. I didn't get it until a theatre friend talked to me about the headspace. It's foreign, a bit strange, encompassing and interesting.

I am very much based in "fact" as a historian. Or imagination otherwise. Theatre means finding the inbetween....and after some searching I think I am there, or getting there at least.

I have a lot more respect for actors after trying it myself.

I'm not sure where I will go with theatre. It's a bit uncomfortable at times but....in a good way. It makes you stretch, to believe, to try. Maybe that's good for me before I become totally stuck somewhere.

Peace.
~Lo