Stacy Greenwood was my next door neighbor when I was a teenager. She was two years younger than I was and I sort of had a crush on her.there's a picture of her on my Facebook right now. everyone thought that she and my brother Charlie might end up a couple at one point. But there was a point where she was flirting with me and I was too shy to know how to react, but in retrospect I'm pretty certain that she was interested. I was also friends with her brother Dan who was a year older than me. Dan ended up marrying a girl in in our neighborhood when he turned 18 and then he joined the military. After high school I lost track of both Stacy and Dan. after my daughter was born and I broke up with her mother I tried looking for Stacy. I heard that she was working at a local grocery store and I went there a few times see if I could run into her. But I never did and then of course I got busy with all sorts of other things.

Stacy was shot to death by her husband last Monday. the day that I found out about her death I had been on the phone with a woman who had a petition filed for an order of protection.. we had a trial the next day and I had convinced her not to drop the petition. from what I could tell from the newspaper article the background of the cases weren't that dissimilar. the police had been called on two previous occasions to Stacy's home because of verbal arguments. Stacy had moved out of the home for a couple of days because of the fighting. Not particularly unusual and nothing in it wouldn't necessarily suggest that this guy would shoot someone.

They put the memorial website for her on Facebook and I attended calling hours. dan was there. He and Lori are still married after 30 years. I saw Stacy's three grown children. beautiful kids and they were crying course.I felt kinda awkward being there since it had been 30 almost 30 years.

Stacy was a grandmother by the time she died and in her most recent photos looked like someone who could be a grandmother. but then I'm two years older than her and I could still see the pretty girl inside of her. I wondered briefly how my life might have been different if I hadn't been so shy all those years ago.

anyway tomorrow is Father's Day and for possibly for the first time in more than a decade I am expecting a card from my daughter. we've been getting along much better lately.

I think I'll just end this entry. my girlfriend is at a birthday party and she'll be back soon. Its beautiful outside today and we may go kayaking and then attend an outdoor play.