Having been accurately read by all sorts of online gimmicks, I'm not particularly impressed with the whole ColorGenics business. Still, it is interesting...

You feel as if you have missed out in a great deal that life had to offer .. and you go about trying to make up for past failures ..Naturally at times you get depressed ... and you try to compensate for your "missed opportunities" by living your life to the full ... This is what, perhaps, may be described as "living with exaggerated intensity". In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again ..and it could be that you are right.

Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.

It is amazing that you, yourself, believe that old "adage" that you are a misunderstood person ... and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that makes you feel the need to conform to society in general ... but this situation leaves you "cold" knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment .... you seem to be just playing along.

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity... and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are.. but no.. you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself make you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest ... beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.

You really like doing what you do and more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that "If its not fun - then don't do it" You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are, but for what you are.. and it seems to be working...