So, tomorrow is the anniversary of the attacks on our country. There's so much to say about it, and I honestly don't think I can put all the thoughts that are running through my head into words. I can't do them justice.

The one thing I wanted to get out of my system though is a feeling I've been having. Starting this morning I began to have a feeling that something very bad was going to happen. And then, when I logged onto CNN's website (www.cnn.com) and saw that we were in an orange alert for tomorrow, the feeling deepened. I don't know how to describe it. It's just a feeling in the pit of my stomach that something very bad is going to happen in the near future. I hope it's just nerves and left over anxiety from the attacks of last year. I hope it's just a bout of post traumatic stress syndrome. I hope nothing bad happens. But I can't shake this feeling and it's disturbing me. I can't even concentrate in class today because of it. I'm worried and I don't know why. I even did something totally out of character for myself today - I asked Rob to stay home from work tomorrow. I never ask someone to skip work, school, or their plans based on a whim. But it seemed so important that I do this. Unfortunately, he has to go in tomorrow. I have a feeling that I'll be spending the day worrying about him and about all the people I care about. I lost a good friend last year in the World Trade Center. I don't want to lose anyone else that I care about.

Does anyone else out there have this feeling?

Is it just me?

If you read this journal, then chances are you're someone I care about. I don't know of anyone who just randomly wanders in here. But whoever you are - whether you're my fiance, my best friend, a relative, a good friend, or someone who has never met me before - please take care this week. Especially tomorrow.