I was going to put something up so that my journal flips over to October, but seeing that it's already October got me down.

In less than a month, I will be 34 years old. In my mid-thirties. And yet, I still don't have a job. I'm a 34 year old who is married with a child and still getting money from my parents. It's not for a lack of trying to find a job, I've been working my ass off on that all year, but it seems that no one is interested in hiring me.

I'm a pathetic loser. Seriously. Think about it - a 34 year old who is married with a child, can't find a job to save her life, and is still getting money from her parents. Can you think of a word other than pathetic to describe it?

Don't say things will turn up, that it will get better, or that I will find a job soon. I've been hearing that for a long time now and it hasn't happened yet.

Yes, this economy sucks. Yes, it makes it harder to find a job. But that doesn't make me any less pathetic.

Gabriel is the best thing I've done with my life. It it weren't for him, I would be truly worthless.

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You Are 65% Normal About Sex

When it comes to sex, you're somewhat normal. You tend to have an average sex life... which is no where as boring as it sounds! No one would probably consider your sexual experiences or preferences to be really unusual. But you probably do have a few interesting surprises up your sleeve.