Happy Birthday Eleanor. You would have been 99 today. I still think of you often and miss you daily. There will always be a hole in my heart and I wish I could see you just one more time. I wish you could see how Gabriel's doing. I know you were never into small kids, but I think you'd like him. He's incredible.

People lie. It doesn't get better. Not ever. I still miss you, cry for you, and the realization that I will never see you again in this life hits me like a ton of bricks. It still hurts. While the wound is no longer fresh, the scar will be with me for the rest of my life.

Today is a rather difficult day for me, and I think it always will be.

I love you and miss you more than words can ever convey.