Listening: To the Teeth ani di franco
I'd rather be: Well taken care of
Aches and Complaints: stress exhaustion

Had a hard time sleeping last night, trying not to stress, but of course the harder I tried the more stressed I became. I don't exactly leap out of bed most mornings, but I normally don't curl up under the covers wishing for a few more hours. While normally I'm resigned to dragging my butt out of bed and into my day, today I was resigned but had to give myself a pep talk just to get into the shower.


I wasn't looking forward to work and even my stomach was twisting in unhappy ways at the thought of it. I considered skipping, but I really can't skip any work for a while.

At this point I've told my guys I'm going to resign from the advisory panel. I've gotten a few notes of support from people. No one here expects respect from management so no one had any alternative plans.

I look on quitting as a sign of weakness. Even when in my head it makes sense, my instincts say I just had to try a little harder, want it a little more. I got it directly from my parents who, after nearly 30 years of bitter fights, sour confrontation, miserable holidays and ruined birthdays, they're still together to the bitter end. Cause that's what marriage means.

But my fight here is over. There's a one in 100 chance that yahoo will bring a big enough shake up that management might again being a palatable organization to deal with. But I'm not holding my breath. I've gotten on a couple of job boards and tonight I'll look around some more.

Anyone know of a fulltime copywriting gig?

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In other news Elia Kazan has died. To fully explain his impact on Hollywood, the American stage and my own career choices, and indeed many of my ethical beliefs, would just take too long.

Congratulations, Elia. You were strong, you were brilliant, you were an asshole and a nightmare. Welcome to being a human.

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And lest I forget, Saturday was my niece's first birthday!