I should be writing a paper that is due tomarrow morning, or studying for tomarrows Spanish test, but I don't feel like it. I don't know what has been up with me lately, I just don't feel like doing anything. I have a list of things to do each day lately, which I look at once, and then sit on my ass and watch music videos for a while, or find other stupid stuff to sit around and do and waste time. I just keep putting everything off, I don't know why. I have no motivation to get off of my ass lately and do anything that I do not absolutely have to do, like go to class and rehersals and Ren Faire. I put so much off till later, errands that I should run, people I should call, stuff I should organize in my life to make sure my shit is together and I can actually graduate and get out of here, and now I have two trips to make sure I plan eventually as well. Anyhow, beyond that, things have been cool, I will probabally be called into rehersals 5 nights a week now till the show opens, which I don't mind. Class is okay, I just wish I cared more about my school work and not just doing what I need to get by and pass everything. I think I am just burnt out, or maybe a little overwelmed or depressed, or something, or maybe I just need to get laid. I got totally wasted a few nights ago, that certainly didn't help matters, I still have a slight sick feeling in my tummy from it. Not cool. Ren Faire has been a fun and nice escape, where I can go and not worry about anything that needs to get done, because I'm stuck there in costume all day and there is no point to stressing about anything there. Well, tonight, I get to sit back and watch a play, the one that I was hoping to get into, but instead I got cast in Streetcar Named Desire. All of my friends are in this show, so it should totally kick ass, and tomarrow is the opening night and cast party, all will rock. I am just in a weird kind of rut right now that I wish I could just snap out of. Anyhow, back to life.