Came across some old correspondence regarding a two years past trauma.

Reading it with the perspective of time and growth from experience and new understandings, I believe I did my friends a disservice by inferring greater malice than had been intended, especially in a couple of specific areas. Yes, I still wish that the person with whom I'd once been quite close had been more honest and forthright. Regardless, I fear that my interpretation of the situation ended up becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy.

But what is worst of all is that I've realized that those things that were said to me that stung the most and to which I reacted the most vehemently were actually true.

Ouch.

Damn.

About all I can do at this point is try to learn from the experience and move forward with renewed desire to become more than I have been in the past, to keep learning and growing and becoming more centered and connected with those around me.

But, well, damn.

Be nice if learning experiences weren't retroactive.

:(