That's my mood lately. Blah. Actually that seems to be everyone's mood lately. Blah. Sick of this shit.

We finally have television at home (which my husband could not live without) thanks to a recently installed satellite dish (sigh.) However, we still have no internet (which I can't live without) save for warjacking my neighbor's wireless. See, if I stand right next to the wall downstairs I can get a "very low" signal. It's enough to check my email, though I can't send, and loading a big page is out of the question. Sigh. The projected date for getting DSL installed is mid-November.

My friend, Kat, is still without power. A tree fell and yanked the meter box off of the wall of the house, and so we had to have an electrician come out and fix that. Unfortunately, before the electrician could come out, Cleco came by and restored power to the area. This is unfortunate because now Cleco has to come back out to restring the wire and finish the job, and since they are still trying to do major work elsewhere it may be weeks before they get around to taking care of one piddling little house in a middle-class neighborhood.

Can I just say THANK GOD that Rita is (hopefully) not going to swipe Louisiana? It's weird... I've lived in hurricane country all of my life, have been through more hurricanes than I can count, but now, after going through Katrina, now I'm actually scared when I see a storm enter the gulf. I'm not alone either. That's the reaction of everyone here. Used to be a hurricane was something that was braved and endured and then you could kinda puff your chest out afterwards while you were cleaning up and say, yeah, I was here and made it through.

And that is what kills me about people from non-hurricane areas who are so eager to jump up and down and say, "Oh those people who didn't evacuate who had the ability are just so stooooopid!" Yeah, well fuck you too. You have no idea what it's like to live in hurricane country. Yes, I evacuated, but it was at the last minute and only because we had the baby. If not for Anna, I KNOW we would have stayed. People here have been through bad storms before. But this was beyond all frame of reference. No one could have comprehended that the damage could have been so severe. I'm not talking about New Orleans. New Orleans DIDN'T GET THE EYE!!! The damage in New Orleans was almost entirely from the breaches in the levees. St. Tammany Parish took the fucking eye. Winds over 200 miles an hour. Over half of the trees in the parish downed, and I'd be willing to say probably 80% of the "big" trees. Come on, think about it. Go outside and look around, and now try and picture what it would look like with most of the trees knocked over. Okay, now add a 30 foot storm surge. Areas that never ever ever flood got water... ten feet or more of water. This is why we were so shocked to not find more bodies in the areas where I was searching. I couldn't believe that so many people really evacuated from an area that just doesn't flood.

And, OH MY GOD I am SO FUCKING SICK of all the talk from people in other parts of the country turning this whole thing into a giant RACE/POVERTY issue. Give me a fucking break. Give me a FUCKING break. And then you have that lunatic jackass waste of air Farrakhan stirring things up even more and saying that the levees were blown up to kill black people and save white people. What kind of crack does this moron smoke???

The federal government fucked up big time when it came to helping the city and the surroundings. It's a fuckup of colossal proportions. But it was NOT A BLACK/WHITE ISSUE! Jesus Christ, would someone please remember that Louisiana was a goddamn Red State?

Sigh. I'm mad. I'm tired. I'm depressed. The traffic is ungodly. It takes me almost an hour to get home now, when it used to take fifteen minutes. Where did all these fucking people come from and why the fuck are they driving?

I'm sick of this shit. I'm sick sick sick of this shit, and I'm really sick of people in other parts of the country passing judgement. I especially get pissed at the people who say snarky things about how New Orleans was built under sea level and how moronic that is. HELLOOOO, MOST OF FUCKING CALIFORNIA IS ON A GODDAMN MAJOR FAULT LINE AND WE STILL REBUILT FUCKING SAN FRANCISCO AND NORTHRIDGE!

Argg.