Still trying to figure out exactly what it is I am feeling today. I sometimes get into modes where even I am not clear on my own feelings about a subject, but today, I am not very clear on my overall mood. I'm seeing a wide range of moods and views on what the mood for today should be, but if I'm supposed to feel something extremely significant about today, I cannot really say that I do. Not that last year's events didn't have an effect on a lot of people, it's just hard for me to place my finger on whats going on with me specifically.

Oh Well...

In other news, I am really annoyed at Hotmail right now, as I now get pop up ads while reading messages in Hotmail. The last pop up ad was, no kidding, for a $30 software to "stop annoying pop up ads just like this one". So not only do their spam filters suck, but they now totally suck.

Speaking of spam, I was taking to one of my friends from my hometown about gaining and losing weight (no really, there is a connection that explains that segway). We're both a few years from our energy filled thin days of youth and a couple of years into the sedentary desk job mid twenties mode. I know I've put on a few pounds when college hit, and a few more since then. Somethings I know I'm being silly when I get so self concious about it. (There's a point to this, I promise). But it was at this point I realized that some people will do anything to lose a few pounds. My friend decided to go to a website that she got spammed with, which allowed her to browse through several various perscription medications (some of these are fairly intense medications), choose a random weightloss medication, fill out a health questionnaire, and order a perscription online. Two days later, via fed ex, she got a perscription, with a doctor's name on it and everything (filled in a pharmacy in Florida). She was all excited about it. I was shocked.

Ok, there are several things that can go or could have gone terribly wrong with her scenario. First of all, I don't see how this can be legal. Second, perscriptions are perscriptions because they're potentially dangerous without a doctor's advice. Third, when ordered in this manner, who the hell knows whether you have the correct pills, or whether you even have honest medication and not some basement cooked up lookalike pill of who knows what. I advised her to think more before doing drastic stuff like that and at least ask her doctor whether it is a safe medication for her to consider being on. I can't even imagine being that desperate.

So, other than that and random Cam drama, having a fairly good week so far. I believe that I am almost completely done with my first oil portrait. It's a black and white of Nicole Kidman, with a little bit of red in her hair and lips, from a Moulin Rouge picture. I'm pretty jazzed with how it turned out.