I know. It's been a long time. So sue me.

My life has been insane lately. I am a jumble of emotions right now. I am the oddest combination of the happiest I have ever been, the most lost I have ever been, and the most confused I have ever been.

I'm enjoying my life for the most part - being a complete and utter slacker does have it's advantages. I can sit home, watch tv,and be on the phone all day; I can go out whatever time, whatever day and not have to worry about going to school or work.

But I think it is starting to get a little old. In all honesty I want a job. But I have no chance in hell of getting one. I went into the career services office at Pepperdine the other day (yes, I know, that was my first mistake). I had been calling all week to make an appointment but I never got through, so I just walked in. I guess that didn't go over so well with the bitch that I talked to in the office because all I got was major attitude for the few precious moments of her time that she actually gave me.

She told me nothing positive. Criticism is fine; complete negativity is not. It all boils down to the fact that my resume sucked, I don't have enough experience and I will have to get a temporary job to gain the experience that I need to get a "real" job... if I am lucky enough to trick someone into employing me. Luckily, Julia and Bryce came to the rescue and forced me to not give up and to re-do my resume and make it at least somewhat presentable. Thank you guys, you don't know how much I appreciate it.

So here is what I figure: I need to utilize personal contacts because that is probably the only way I will ever get a job. AND... I need to get the hell out of LA, and California in general. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I need to once again venture out of my safety zone and be a big independent girl on my own. Jen and Rob, take me away. Let's go to Chicago and let's go now!