I’m trying with great effort to hang on to the great mood that I have been in for so long, and in the face of what seems like endless annoyances and issues, it’s getting a bit difficult. When I take each of these negative things independently, they don’t seem to be all that worth getting too exorbitantly upset about, but when I think of them all in the course of a few minutes or so, I start to feel sick. I keep trying to remind myself that ‘in the great scheme of things’ this little crap doesn’t matter. Perspective is my mantra.

There are good things. I’m in a fluttery state of ‘like.’ That’s always exciting. I had two really incredible evenings this weekend, despite having a rough two nights at the restaurant. The weather is finally improving, and if all goes as predicted by the weatherman I will be mountain biking tomorrow after work. I got a ticket this weekend in the evil valley where I reside, and while this will cause major problems with hanging on to my license and will be costly, it could be much worse (as in, I could have been arrested for driving without insurance…yikes). I have an avalanche of things that need to be paid for yesterday (gargantuan gas bill, grad school crap, four birthday gifts, a wedding shower gift, a bridesmaid dress, the damn car/license/insurance nightmare, a major income tax hiccup, a plane ticket for my vacation in June, the list goes on and on). I guess this is why people have those things…oh, what are they called? Oh yeah…SAVINGS ACCOUNTS! Who knew? Wish I had one…

So yes, I will hang on to my flutterings, my biking excitement, my approaching vacation, mix them with a bit of bouncy punk music, smile, and wade it out. I swear. I will not bitch. I will not freak. I will stay calm…