Tuesday

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"I believe talent is like electricity. We don't understand electricity. We use it. You can plug into it and light up a lamp, keep a heart pump going, light a cathedral, or you can electrocute a person with it. Electricity will do all that. It makes no judgment. I think talent is like that. I believe every person is born with talent." - Maya Angelou
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My head is full of drama and chaos. I still want to scream and pull my hair out. But, I did wash my face and put on make-up. This is a good start.

Today was a food bank day but I never heard the alarm clock go off. I did not wake up until about 9:30 a.m. Michael made me a breakfast of eggs and toast with a short glass of milk.

I am ready for us to be by ourselves again. I keep hearing my Al-Anon tool of, "is any of this any of my business?" The resounding answer is NO! I keep myself from asking questions to find out what is going on and I go into another room.

Or as in today, I went out to my back patio and did some weeding and pruning of my plants. I transplanted plants. I watered my potted plants and I cleaned the algae out of the birdbath and put clean water back in. I swept the patio. I still had a lot of sand from the last rain we had. It also appears that the birds are not taking Bailey's hair. I think I will wait until spring to put the hair out.

I did offer to go take a walk but I was ignored.

Okay then, I am going to write instead. I will get something productive done in the writing area of my life.

Do not get me wrong. I feel good about straightening up my patio and bringing some order there and it is exercise. Plus, I washed Bailey's used litter box from last month. Those things are done and checked off my list.

What have I accomplished today:

1. Washed face
2. Brushed teeth
3. Brushed hair
4. Applied skin care
5. Applied make-up
6. Ate breakfast
7. Got dressed
8. Drove to Morro Bay to attend an open AA meeting with company
9. Weeded, pruned, transplanted and watered my garden
10. Cleaned the birdbath and refilled same
11. Watered potted plants
12. Swept the sand from the last rain off the patio

I have read two of my inspiration books. The one for art (I still have not done the drawing project - it scares me) and today's reading in "Courage to Change." I still need to read my Episcopal book "Day by Day."

I do want to take time to read in "Charade." I am not sure I like this book. It is taking a long time to get around to the crux of the book. The storyline is intriguing. It is about people who have heart transplants and then on an anniversary of their transplant, they die from an accident. I will read some tonight.

Bailey has been quiet today. Yesterday, he hung out in my lap whenever I sat down. I think/feel he can tell stuff was going on. He was fussy this morning with me being gone for two and a half hours. Since I have been home, he as been sleeping in my chair while I am at the lap top. When I went outside to work on the patio, he came out with me until I shooed him away from the bamboo leaves. Then he came inside when I turned on the water. I think he remembers being squirted the last time when he was eating my plant leaves.

Michael did notice my work on the patio and complemented me on a good job. I told him I thought about asking him to do the yard work but I was afraid he would end up pulling up all of my plants in his zeal to work off his energy.


mz. em

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Currently reading:
-- "Charade" - Sandra Brown
-- "The Daily Book of Art/356 readings that teach, inspire & entertain" - day 22
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