Monday, May 7, 2012


I fell asleep very easily only I was in my chair. I woke up around 2:30 a.m. and then went to bed. Things were fine until I began dreaming. I had a work dream and in it I had a major melt down and I didn't care if they liked me, fired me or what. I had had it with me attempting to do the job they asked me to do and then not creating space to do the work in and changing computers on me and not tell me. This is a recurring dream theme but they are getting farther apart which I'm glad about.

My second dream I was searching for jewelry I had and was now lost. I search frantically, I find some but not others. It is a vicious cycle of this need to find what is lost.

Needless to say, I was grumpy when I got up. I felt out of kilter. I'm glad I didn't have anything planned for today other than take the check for storage unit over to the office. I got a nice walk out of it and a rose photo.

I also saw a friend of mine who asked me if I would like a kitten. She has a friend whose cat just had a litter. It was tempting but I said no but I would ask around. Then I found some flowers growing wild on county property. They were ones I especially like and so I took a bunch. Flower thief, I never thought I would see the day. I have it in a pot all ready and it is soaking up some sun.
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I have been reading a book by Leo Buscaglia and one of my e-mails had a quote by him and I thought I would share.

"Don't smother each other. No one can grow in the shade." - Leo Buscaglia, best-selling author and motivational speaker.

It is so true that everyone really needs to be themselves. We share lives but we have our own life as well.
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I spoke with Michael today. He sounds a little better but I don't feel he's quite ready to come home. I know he wants to come home very much.

I have mixed feelings about his return home. I am enjoying the lack of stress, drama and chaos. I hate to admit it but I kind of like being by myself. Is that terrible of me? I really do love the guy but not the guy he's become. That person isn't much fun.

I wonder how far I will go before I have to make choices?

mz. em

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Currently reading:
-- Catching up on books I began but didn't finish.
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