Tuesday



I don't think of refuge very much but the word can mean so many things.

Refuge is when I am feeling so depressed I cannot leave the house, like today. Yesterday, I told Michael about the last time I thought about suicide by drowning in the bathtub. Of course, this upsets him but thankfully, it was only a thought on my part.

I have really been overcome by the nastiness of the neighbors and getting the housing authority involved. This also brought out my malice, which I am not ashamed of but it really isn't me. I just want to a nice quiet life and not be bothered or bother anyone.

After yesterday's revelation, I have not felt like doing much of anything today. I have been sleeping a lot. Hopefully tomorrow I will feel much better. I hope so since I have an art date with a friend of mine.

For me, the only thing accomplished today and with Michael's assist was to clean out and give Bailey a new litter box. While Michael is sweeping up the bathroom floor, Bailey is trying out the new box. Michael couldn't believe it but this is what Bailey does to me every time I clean the box daily including the monthly box do over.

The another refuge in my home is my queen's chair, which is very comfortable and I armchair travel, read, and do my art. Let me not forget, I take my naps there as well.

Another place I consider a refuge is the sanctuary. Mostly I see my books. I have lots of them. This is why I need to stay away from the library since I have so many books here at home I want to read. Another reason is there is plenty of room there to do yoga and weight lifting. Whenever I have meditated there, there is a slight hint of incense lingering in the room. It's nice to take a nap in there as well.

And, when there isn't a branch crashing through the fence, I have my bench to rest on to nap or to read my books. This is the one place I can sit and do nothing but daydream. It's amazing for me to let my mind wander where it will and the ideas that come to me.

Do you have a refuge?

mz. em





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"I expect to pass through life but once. If therefore, there be any kindness I can show, or any good thing I can do to any fellow being, let me do it now, and not defer or neglect it, as I shall not pass this way again." - William Penn, English entrepreneur and philosopher

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