Plot definitely lost now. Don't know how to keep calm and wait and see. Till tomorrow. Doctor said it's 'probably' not cancer, which means it might be. Thought of how YD will cope with that unbearable. Haven't told anyone except Bloke, who has gone silent on me, in the way of blokes. In the great scheme of things this is nothing but if you have any prayers or kind thoughts you could send my way I would find them very helpful.

Grateful for: a health service that still offers these checks for free with only ten days or so to wait; as it's a camera, I'll know the result immediately; I've had sixty-one full years; not living in a war zone; Jeremy Corbyn offering a voice of decent humanity in these scary days


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