Well, it came to a head. Apparently, I did not make myself clear enough to my husband;On Tuesday night he had straightened out buying the bed for my gd; later we were watching tv and he mentioned getting the wii to send and he saw something in my face. he addressed it right there. When I mentioned that it still seemed like a lot going to IL (daughter's family) compared to what was going to AZ (son)he blew up. In our discussion last week, I agreed to something that I didn't remember clearly. Apparently he had changed some dollar amounts around and I didn't remember that. He also told me that my son only wanted the minimum assistance from us-and if emergency help is needed he will ask for it. I didn't know that.

What a blow out. I need to watch my communication with my husband. I need to express myself to him clearly and immediately when something is bothering me. He use to almost be able to read my mind. I really mean that. For many years, he knew me better than I knew myself. Something within him changed-I don't know if it is because of the medication he is on, or if it is me, but he says that he has to really watch me for clues now. He doesn't always know if I am upset about something. OH boy, It is time to look at myself. I guess I got use to him second guessing me. Time to talk it out with him. He said that the changing started when he got the job in DC and he noticed the difference when I joined him out here. Did I become too independent too fast? Or did something else happen?

So folks, I guess a lot of my angst the past few months has been partially of my own making. I have not been talking to him clearly. Or at least not clearly enough.

I will be going Christmas shopping for him Saturday. I know what I am buying for him. I cleared it with my DD, who knows electronics. I was going to go tonight, but trying to get through the stores before the meeting tonight, and lugging the stuff to the meeting and trying to hide it all will be too much.

I will be baking this weekend too. Lemon cookies and sugar cookies, cranberry bread and pumpkin roll. That will do it for the holiday.

We will be moving between the 29th and the New Year. We will be in the same apartment building, but into a bigger place, HURRAY!!!!!!!!!!

Crochet club meets tonight. Yeah, fun! I have been working on that shawl. It is coming right along. The yarn is the tricky thing with it. Hubby did say that if I have more than 4 projects going at a time I have too many, and I am starting to think that he is right. I am going to limit it to 1 portable project, 1 charity project, 1 by the the chair project, and several in the plans projects. That should do it.

Well, all caught up on the news. Now to work on Goals for 2010.

Hey, does anyone remember when their math teacher would have them figure out how old they would be in the year 2000? or beyond? Did you ever think that you would be this "old"? I could never get the right answer for some reason. Or actually, my answer was different than my classmates. I was born in April, so I graduated when I was 18, most of them graduated when they were 17. I ended up being a year older all the way around. Lots of fun sometimes.