I really think that my husband is scared and doesn't know what is really wrong. I have tried to explain what I am seeing and feeling, and his come back is that he is trying to change things but that I am not giving him a break, that he makes small changes and I look harder for things to "catch him on". When I asked for examples, he couldn't give me one.

What lead to this was finding out that 1 my son had not filed taxes yet, and 2 my son has had no federal or state withholding because if he did he couldn't afford to live. Now my daughter get $500/mo every month, but according to my husband, my son didn't need that kind of help. I do thing that my son's pride got in the way of asking for help. This weekend that is going to get changed. My daughter should be able to do with a little less. I will be talking to her. Son let slip that he runs out of food before payday so money is on way down, a bill was deducted from bank earlier than he expected. He doesn't have any cushion. He lives one step ahead of homeless. He does have a job and is working extra hours, but still just not quite enough to get ahead.

When we hung up from talking to son, hubby said that he was going to look into working overtime, in fact he would be working so much, that "You may need to look into going to the counselor twice a week." When I asked what that meant, he said since he wouldn't 'be there' for me I would need to talk to the counselor. Then it just spiraled. I broke it by saying that I tried to explain what I was needing and feeling and he didn't seem to understand and that at times I didn't understand what I was doing to upset him and that the counselor would help with all of that. That is why we are going. And that the phone call with DS was the catalyst to the arguement-not anything that I said or did. That finally got him off of it.

When he was a teenager he was in family counselling and apparently he was blamed for all the problems the family was having. I don't think that the family ever followed through to the end and unfortunately I was in the same position. Only I followed through-family didn't. I learned that there is usually 1 child that 'acts out' the problems-but those are only the symtoms, not the cause and you have to work through those to finally get to the cure. And it is work. Good thing I love this man. I am also more optimistic since he is listening and I can understand some of his behavior. And I do see some small changes-no acting out yesterday after me writing the night before. (1 small step at a time) I need to remember to tell him.

On a crochet front-I am finally starting the border on the baby afghan. I did single crochet on 3 of the 4 sides, will be doing the 4th side tonight, I hope. I am thinking of putting a shell trim along the sides. Then it will be done. Hurray!

No writing was done, but my hubby did pick up a notebook for me. I need to do some plotting out and rework my main character. She gets too bold in my last chapter, and I need to rewrite some areas. I need her to get bold, but I need to build it up.