Dress has black background and white lines crisscrossing throughout. Nails are a dark garnet in color-but not too dark, fairly short & sqared, hair and make up done and my stomachs upset. Of course I got whiny boy last night and this morning. All he could talk about was how much time we wouldn't be spending together-good chance of a change in tour of duty. I REALLY PRAY I get this position. It will help with the de-enmeshment. (yes,TT, I did read the posts on the other site!!)

My division chief is wishing me luck and made a comment about making myself invaluable to them so that if a permanent position comes open, I make the top of the list.

My Dh knows things are changing. I am taking time for myself. I give to him too, but if I am not ready for bed-for whatever reason, I don't jump up just to go to bed. He gets upset with that. I can't explain what I am doing, he has to learn to deal with what I can give-and I am giving a lot of time, but the backlash gets to me some times.

He thinks that his tone of voice doesn't count when he talks to me and insists that what I hear isn't what he says. So now I can't tell him what I hear. Because I am interpreting incorrectly!! He doesn't hear himself. So I find myself asking him to tell me exactly what he means. Cause when I tell him what I heard he tells me that "you are doing it again-you are interpreting my words" ARGH!!!!!!
(happened at 10:30 last night) again. Then when I told him to stop whining and to speak up, he said he was having a seizure (convient-I didn't buy it this time).

Ok, enough of this. What else is going on? I don't know? Just lots of nerves. My interview is at 12:30. I am leaving my desk at about 12:10 to go to the room.