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Finally really found a cause for my multi-day migraines. This is the third or fourth time that I have had one right after filing in for the Division secretary. And the only thing different is the set up of the computer I need to use. It is lower on the desk. That is now fixed. So, my neck will no longer be bent-no longer straining, and thus, my migraines should come to an end-at least the ones that lay me up. At least with this one, I already had an appointment with my neurologist and she saw the side effect, and presribed meds to replace those that we were having a hard time getting. But guess what? Now we can get them all! And co-pay is 0.

MC was interesting last night. B was suppose to have EMDR, well, I had it instead. Not his fault, but he saw my distress and made sure the counselor knew of it.

A long time friend left my life and it devastated me. (probably didn't help my migraine either.) Anyway, it was more than grief, and counselor saw it. EMDR is interesting. You hold an electrical device in each hand. Small pulses are sent through the device. You keep your eyes closed. This whole exercise is guided by the counselor-you describe what happend and how you felt and assign an image to it all. Then relate it to a number 1-10 (10 being worse possible). And then you close your eyes while the pulses are sent through and you are told to relax and let your mind wander to another time when you felt similar. Oh boy, was this an experience. But you know what, it helps. It helps you relate why it hurt so much. But for me it did a little bit more.

It allowed me to see something about the relationship that just ended. For as long as I could remember, I looked up to this person as being 'wiser' than me. As being smarter. I don't know why. Maybe at one time, it was a true statement, but life has equaled us out. The school of life tends to do that.

I know I am not perfect, I know I am growing. I feel and see that. My relationship with B has changed and the way we relate to each other has changed tremendously. He knows that the change must be permanent since I refuse to live the way we were, and so does he. Do we act like teenagers sometimes? Yes, and that is mainly for him, because that is where he is stuck and what he needs, for now. I expect that to change as he receives the EMDR.

And so life goes on. And I am OK. Are you?

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Previous Entry :: Next Entry Read/Post Comments (3) Share on Facebook		2012-05-18 10:41 AM Figured one thing out Finally really found a cause for my multi-day migraines. This is the third or fourth time that I have had one right after filing in for the Division secretary. And the only thing different is the set up of the computer I need to use. It is lower on the desk. That is now fixed. So, my neck will no longer be bent-no longer straining, and thus, my migraines should come to an end-at least the ones that lay me up. At least with this one, I already had an appointment with my neurologist and she saw the side effect, and presribed meds to replace those that we were having a hard time getting. But guess what? Now we can get them all! And co-pay is 0. MC was interesting last night. B was suppose to have EMDR, well, I had it instead. Not his fault, but he saw my distress and made sure the counselor knew of it. A long time friend left my life and it devastated me. (probably didn't help my migraine either.) Anyway, it was more than grief, and counselor saw it. EMDR is interesting. You hold an electrical device in each hand. Small pulses are sent through the device. You keep your eyes closed. This whole exercise is guided by the counselor-you describe what happend and how you felt and assign an image to it all. Then relate it to a number 1-10 (10 being worse possible). And then you close your eyes while the pulses are sent through and you are told to relax and let your mind wander to another time when you felt similar. Oh boy, was this an experience. But you know what, it helps. It helps you relate why it hurt so much. But for me it did a little bit more. It allowed me to see something about the relationship that just ended. For as long as I could remember, I looked up to this person as being 'wiser' than me. As being smarter. I don't know why. Maybe at one time, it was a true statement, but life has equaled us out. The school of life tends to do that. I know I am not perfect, I know I am growing. I feel and see that. My relationship with B has changed and the way we relate to each other has changed tremendously. He knows that the change must be permanent since I refuse to live the way we were, and so does he. Do we act like teenagers sometimes? Yes, and that is mainly for him, because that is where he is stuck and what he needs, for now. I expect that to change as he receives the EMDR. And so life goes on. And I am OK. Are you? Read/Post Comments (3) Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top