I think, at this point, it may be less painful to just beat my head with a brick. It would certainly more direct than the torture the bar exam is creating. I'm having a stress-out day--I keep doing practice questions, and while I thank the gods don't tend to drop below a 50% overall, I can only get in the mid-80's in even my best subjects. I feel like I'm in a kind of stasis--no matter what, I can't get better. I study and study, and five minutes later I can't tell you what I just "learned." My hope is that if I were to be asked a question about it, the knowledge is there now, and I really am not wasting my time going over this stuff... Oh, I know--I go and take this test, and if I fail I go and take it in February. No really big deal. Except, of course, that I can't work as a lawyer until I pass the bar, so job prospects wouldn't be so good... And I really really don't want to have to do this again. The bar is next week. Five days. It's a large, slavering, gruesome beast. How did it sneak up on me like this?