You know that feeling when you JUST wake up, and you aren't really sure where you are, if you are awake or dreaming, etc... I have spent the past few weeks like that.

I cannot say my new career choice of acting/modeling is turning out to what I was hoping. I find that the whole idea of purchasing someone for a day or a few hours is quite silly. I never had to be put in these shoes before, so in that way I really appreciate the new perspective, but I don't think my mind wants to deal with this career...

For instance, and this will come as NO surprise to many of you, I found myself on the set of a Microsoft commercial last week as an extra, but could not sit still, I was so concerned about the shoot itself. At one point, I actually pulled one of the crew members aside and asked if they knew the light next to me was off (it was on in all previous shots)...

Then, two days ago I found myself at an audition or some Sony thing and couldn't relax because the casting session was so unorganized... which I am learning very quickly is the norm in Japan. But imagine you are called for an audition, you travel about 50 minutes on three trains, wait for 10 minutes at the station for your agency rep., walk about 10 minutes to the audition, wait there to be called in for another 10 to 15 minutes, then sit down in front of two or three Japanese guys with a small digital camera and a script that makes no sense to you at all. Then they say, "ok, pretend there is a big tv screen where I am sitting, and you are watching it, then read your lines". My "lines" consisted of "Go for it!" and "I think it'll be Ronaldo". Then they say, "thank you". At no point do they ever give you the context of the commercial or even tell you what they are trying to sell...

I guess these experiences are reminding me of why I got out of this business in LA, in the end it's just bad tv, and I'm not sure I want to be a part of that anymore.

On the opposite side of the career spectrum, I am finding that I really enjoy teaching. I met a new student on that Microsoft shoot, and she came over for her first lesson today. The first lesson is free so that the students can decide if they are comfortable with you, and if they think you are a good teacher...

Todays student speaks the least amount of English of all of my students, so it is a real challenge to explain things to her. However, it is always fun meeting new people and truly helping them acheive their goals. That said, I think I take the responsibility a bit too far as my one hour lessons often average about 80 minutes.

What else, oh yeah, my good friend Kristine has started a journal of her own, and if she writes more than one entry I am sure it will continue to be a good read. However, I hope she doesn't write more than four because they she will break John Antonino's record of...well...four. Great journals guys, I just wish I could read them more!

Also, I am working on dedicating more of my time and brain power to starting a business of my own when I return to the US... I have a lot of free time now that I have always begged for, so now I must produce... we'll see...

Oh, and yes, the Simpsons have finally made it to Japanese network tv!!! Now, I can finally watch them as they were meant to be seen in both English and Japanese! However, I am not sure if watching them makes me feel better or home sick? When the episode finished last night I really started to miss everyone back in the US... DOH!

That's all for now... Hopefully I will wake from this weird fog soon and gain control of myself again...