I'm here in VA and have all my worldly goods and my VW in a truck outside.

I've never done this before. Gone to a place I don't have a job, a new place, one with no connections other than a strong desire to be near at least one of my children, and near at least one of my grandchildren, and far away from the door of my sweet sister, who, on the inside was heroically battling ovarian cancer (which laughed at her optimism of getting better and eventually, it was the victor) and my sweet brothers and, of course, my mother who needs me now more than ever.

Oh, what to do?

My answer to that was "do it for me"...how selfish can I be, but on the other hand, if not now, when?