It is one thing to have your loyalties turned against you, and to be used like a pawn between people's own selfish goals. I've had plenty of that, and at best it's sad, and at worst, disasterous and soul-shattering.

But it's quite another to want to be absolutely loyal to several people.

I don't know if it will end any better, or if it's really even possible, but I am compelled to find out.

I never intend to renege on a promise, so I don't make them often, or lightly. I think though, I've made a few to myself, that I don't intend to go back on, even if no one else knows about them.

In fact, it's probably better than no one does.

Because of them, I need to be loyal in a way I don't know the outcome of. Even if it will make me sad in the end.