I know that there's something wrong when I find certain...manuals underneath a pile of my wife's books I was tidying up.

I'm mostly confused, since well, nothing's been happening needing any "education" for almost a year now, due to trying to conceive, then having some complications. At that point, I was sorta told "why bother?"

And nothing is going to be happening for quite a while, with the way things are going. All energies are going to be diverted to child raising, pretty much forever from what I'm being told. So I don't expect any return to the way things were, well, ever.

Not that the way things were was wine and roses.

But now seems a little late to me. I mean, I was interested in trying new things, but they were laughed off, or treated sorta like "what are you doing?" So, I'm not going to press. I wanted things enjoyable, and I didn't want to feel like I was forcing things. It was up to her.

Now, I'm a little befuddled.

I'm not seeing new expansive horizons with a child on the way, so I guess I wonder what she's thinking. Who are these really for?