I'm feeling unfortunately obsessive and needy as of late, to my consternation, and I don't seem to be able to curb it.

I think it's because I've been denying myself some things for a while now, and rather than anything noble, positive or helpful resulting, instead it's just been making me irritable and crazy.

Things that shouldn't be important, that I shouldn't want or care about, now have magnified into things I can't seem to get over.

It's rather pathetic actually.

I've occasionally gone through streaks like this, but rarely so powerful and so long as now.

My real worry about all of this is how I start acting around friends, and how intolerable and irritating I can become.

Interestingly enough, like some spell-casting or bringing to life an ancient incantation, I've got some strange idea that writing all of this down will help break this habit; like I can exercise these demons.

Really, I think that's more and more what this journal is becoming about. At least until I can find some more big fish pictures to post....