I am in the process of applying for internships for NYC. I HAVE to go there. I didn't realize how much I have had my heart set on going there. I don't think I will be able to come home at the end of my intership. God if I don't get one there I will cry. It's pretty bad to not get an internship as a comm major. There is work for us everywhere.

We had Christmas already. My nieces and nephews are so damn cute. They crack me up. They all have their own unique qualities that make them so awesome. Stacey is sarcastic as all hell. She is riot. She wanted hooker boots for Christmas. Naturally I bought them for her, cause I like to spoil her and never tell her no. Which is funny, I bought my 8 year old niece hooker boots. I guess it isn't that far off since when she was a year old I bought her a leather jacket for Christmas. I got Seth a fish. I told him Santa Claus couldn't keep it on his sled cause it would get too cold and hurt the fishy so Santa gave it to me to give to Seth. He was very happy. They all were. Which is all I wanted for Christmas. :D

I went with Lins to meet Justin and his friend at mall to help him with Christmas shopping. But the mall was closed so we went to WalMart. I can't believe they didn't get kicked out. They were amusing. Justin complimented me again. He told me I have pretty eyes. Nice. I've know him for over three years and NOW he notices I have eyes? Did he not think there was anything above my breasts? Right. Which is what I said to him, he just shrugged and said he always knew he just never said anything. It's nice but it pisses me off. I hate how he has control over my emotions. He can make my day in a second or completely ruin it. It's about time to cut the ties but the sex is SO DAMN GOOD. It's hard to establish good dick these days, you know. I don't know. I guess I could if I wanted to, I just think I DON'T want to. I could let go if I had reason. But I haven't been impressed by anyone else thus far. So I suppose it doesn't much matter.

I stole the quotes at the bottom from Meghan's journal. I like them. Very appropriate for me.

-kln-

Sorry I don't give a fuck.
Sorry I ain't a diva.
Sorry I just know what I want.
Sorry I'm not a virgin, Sorry I'm not a slut.
I won't let you break me, Think what you want.