So today was the first day back to classes. MJ saranaded me with the lovely song from Billy Madison: "Back to school, back to school, to prove to Dad I'm not a fool" She was very awake this morning. I was not. I was still amused. My classes so far seem good and what I will need before an internship so I am happy about that.

An old friend of mine, Justen, is coming up this weekend to party with the Ladies and I. Ally and MJ got decorations and it is looking to be a very interesting night. I am very excited. I used to hang out with Justen when I was younger all the time. I even have a video I found of us. It's not that kind of movie! It's funny, I can't wait to show him. Even though I am talking the whole way through the thing. When I watched it with my Dad I asked him why he didn't drown me when I had the chance. When I told JoAnn about it and that I was talking the whole time she laughed and asked how that was different from now. It isn't. ANYWAYS. So I am excited for this weekend. Drinking with the Ladies, and gettin to hang out with Justen (who BTW grew up very good looking and to be a super sweetheart from what I have seen so far. BONUS as of yet, he has been able to keep up with me and hold my interest. Which is rare. That and he made me blush --yes Meg & Lins I know that you are shocked, Me too--twice at that, which may be a record, especially in such a short time. We will see what comes of this. One thing is for sure, it will be interesting).

In a side topic, but slightly related, I have come to the realization that I am the way I am with guys because there needs to be a sense of equality. This is not some feminism rant of mine. I mean it as an observation. In competition for work, school, sports, anything, I want an equal. I don't want to compete with someone who isn't on the same level as I am. The friends I have are because there is an equality; common interest, ect. Why would I expect less in romance? I have taken to the habit of telling guys "Forget trying to be two steps ahead, just try to keep up" (and for once I am not talking about sex. Yeah I'm just as amazed as you are). I enjoy a challenge. But it has to be with someone who is equal to me, to where I am (where ever the fuck that maybe lol). Most every relationship I have had its been me having total control. Which I don't actually want. I guess its been every one except me and Justin --which was such an extreme opposite of this its sick. But lets not go there. I don't know if my indepth (puddle) analysis of myself makes sense to anyone else. But it has cleared up a lot of things in my head.

ANYWAYS. I have gotten off topic. Imagine me doing that. Who knew? I know its only the first day, but it has been a good start to the semester. I am hopeful and I am smiling.


-kln-

I'm smiling :D