I am sooooo scared. I leave for NYC in a few hours. I am overwhelmed. That and I've had about 25 minutes sleep all night. I know that I can do this. Cause I have always been able to do what I put my mind to. I am just afraid of the hundreds of thousands of variables that could change me from where I am right now.

And I suddendly feel like I am swirling out of control. Lost in a sea of madness created by my own desires and malicious intents. And its all of my own creation and imagination in my own mind. Breathe in deep, feel the air fill my lungs. Silence the chaos in my head.

I know I can do this. I just wish I wasn't so unsure.


-kln-