Okay, my sick mental state is starting to reflect in my body. My skin, my teeth, my hair... they're starting to wither down to a horrible appearance and I'm losing my ability to smile. I cannot lose my vanity, I can't be happy without it.

I fuckin slept all day long. And I don't work out for almost a month. Is this what they call depression? I seriously hope not. I'm pretty sure I'm using all this sleeping crisis as an scapegoat, because I'm afraid, and I'm weak.

As an attempt to improve everything that is out of track in my life, I learned a little bit of HTML to make this journal a little more beautiful. I added my Hot or Not rating and my Eysenck's test result on the left part of the main page. I also re-edited ALL the texts, and made sure they look cleaner, easier and stethically better. Haven't made any changes on the contents, though. I also learned how to add images to the texts, so from now on I will be making use of that, a LOT. My first entry with image was the review of Sword of Mana. Check it out and tell me if you like it.

I'm up and running with my back and arms skin treatment and I went to the army last morning. I'll have to pass through a selection exam at September 13th. Sigh! Citizenship duties! But I had to show up in May/2005, and I did, so I'm free from that for a while.

I still haven't convinced my mother to allow me to transfer to night school, but I think I'll have that done tomorrow. There are NO conditions for me to continue in my current classroom because it's simply IMPOSSIBLE to learn anything.

I'm very broke, but I asked Joe to borrow me some money since what my dad sends me is practically nothing. He hasn't answered my e-mail yet, though.

Well, it's a little over 1am and I hope that tomorrow I wake up in a different mood. I need to get my life on track again. I'll try to have my transfer done tomorrow and to get the lost subjects from the days I skipped school, since Thursday I have no classes. I'll also reorganize my room, my books, my clothes and products. They're a mess. Hopefully Joe will save me borrowing me that money... at least I have taken a few steps to get out of this terrible state of mind.