today was an ordinary day but for some reason iam in a really bad mood. maybe it's because every fucking time i do morning radio, devin feels the urge to tell me i suck, say my music sucks, and make fun of me. go to hell. you have your stupid day to play your craptastic music and now i have my day to play mine. and if you don't like it then you can stick a shovel up your ass and rotate. plus at the end of the day when i was walking down the hall with liz he punches me SO FUCKING HARD in the arm. i was literallycrying it hurt so much. what the fuck? am i a god damn punching bag? why is it that no one respects me? if devin respected me he would not punch me in the arm like a guy. and at work no one likes me there either, as proven by simon. oh yea, he came in the other day when i was helping a customer. and he asked me how things were going. i swear to god one day i am going to shove an ice cream scoop down his throat. i don't know if i should just be nice to him like nothing ever happened and make like it doesn't bother me or if i should just not talk to him again. anyway, i just hate everyone. and jordan is all happy because she has a boyfriend and she always tells me about him and what they do and crap. and i'm happy for her and all, but i'm so jealous it's disgusting. i just want a boyfriend, is that too much to ask? but no, i can't ever have one, because i'm just too gross. i think that's why i am the most pissed off today. now that she hasa boyfriend, she always meets up with him after class and they walk together and they are both in band and crap and they see each other and talk to each other and why the hell does she have to be so perfect? i swear, if i had a boyfriend, and we did all that stuff, it would be the best thing ever. dammit! i know what i'll be doing homecoming weekend and prom weekend. either working or sitting on my ass. at least if i work i'll be getting money. i can't wait to get out of this stupid town. i hate it here. i know i shouldn't because we have it better than a lot of people but for some reason i do. i guess i am spoiled but everyone here just gets on my nerves so much, they think they are better than everyone and their parents just give them cell phones and bmw's and take them clothes shopping every two minutes and then they still bitch about it in school. whatever. only two years left. i need to go study.