today i am upset. not angry. cruched is more like it. when you work hard to build yourself up and someone knocks it down, it hurts. and sometimes people, certain people, knock you down and don't even realize it.

the more you love someone, the more painful their words are.

today i came to school and was prepared to shut everyone out with the help of my cd player. it worked quite nicely. i did not feel like being around people, like being social, like acting fun.

my boyfriend gave me a present today. it was a sausage. a big sausage.

i guess i should have laughed instead of stared blankly at it, but i can not be won over with sausages.

periods 1-4 were sort of sad.

during lunch i talked to my friends. they made me feel better. i decided i would forgive him, but i would not forget it.

during 9th period i learned how to dance. i also got to dance in front of the class. and that b mr kenduck gave me? he changed it to an a. for this i am very grateful and i rescind, but do not regret, my feelings of hate which i displayed recently. i do not regret feelings that i have, because at the time they were felt, they were valid.

i do not regret being mad at joe, because he insulted the very thing that makes me happy, and i do not appreciate that. i realize he is not out to get me, he only wants to help, but some things are better left unsaid. pay attention to what you say, but pay even more attention to what you don't.