There's this guy that I know who shall rename nameless who I used to be friends with. We were even supposed to date, but uh...that never worked out because he got so irritating that I just couldn't handle it anymore. He's not very popular here in Ramsey, and a lot of people want to beat him up...and last night at Ramsey Day he was sitting there making out with his girlfriend while some guys were making fun of him and shizzle. I don't get why he doesn't just beat the crap out of them.

Anyway, there's this other girl who I haven't seen for the whole summer and now that school has started I see her during lunch. Everytime I see her, she's always so miserable, like she has the worst possible life ever. She has an online diary too, and I was reading her entries, and she keeps talking about how now she's a hardcore Christian and no one understands and she can't wait to leave and all that bullshit. It really pisses me off, because the way she talks about it makes it seem like she's so much better than everyone else just because she goes to church. In school she has this attitude like we're all scum at her feet and she's the only pure one left and all these girls had sex but she didn't and she is so holy and now she has to go and preach the word of God to everyone. Jesus. Even though I'm anxious to leave this town too, I don't have this attitude like I'm better than everyone else. And people who are all Christian really piss me off, because they think that everyone has to believe the same things they do and if you don't then you're going to burn in hell for eternity. I am so sorry that I don't spend my life wondering about accepting Jesus into my heart and basing my life on some religion that says a cold blooded murderer who accepts the Lord can go to heaven but some impoverished woman living in a third world country who has never heard of Christianity and will spend the rest of her life taking care of children and tending to the fields will burn in hell. I guss what I'm saying is pretty offensive to religious people, but you know what, I really don't give a shit, because they all think that they are so good and wonderful and everyone else is a pile of crap unless they recite Bible verses that mean nothing to them and donate money to a church with ass-raping priests. No thanks. I'm about to tell this girl not to even bother coming to lunch with us anymore if she's just gonna pull her whole I'm-so-miserable charade.

And then there's this guy. I really liked him. Notice the past tense. Liked. Now I'm really having doubts about him because he is beginning to make me think. I think he's a very nice guy and very mature and has morals and all that good stuff and I think he's handsome and I like the way he is a hippie and all. But besides for the two times we hooked up we never even talk and I refuse to be a booty call. He told me that he was bad at calling and not to think it was anything I did if he didn't call me for awhile. Well fuck that. I called him yesterday twice. Once he didn't pick up and the other time he answered and told me he was drinking by himself. Well I'm sorry drinking by yourself was more important than calling someone who really likes you. And you know what, if you don't like me, then don't hook up with me, because I'm not a whore and you can just find some slut off the street to do that with. And then he told me about this party he went to where he hooked up with all these people in this drinking game. That's disgusting. What if one of those people had herpes or something? Ew. And then he said three of the people were guys. Guys. I don't really consider that to be gay since he was pretty wasted when he did it but still. If that's the type of person he is then fuck that. This town is so gross. Seriously. I'm sick of feeling used. I don't want to get married to anyone, I just want someone who will call and we have shit in common and won't go hook up with guys at parties. I just want a nice person. Is that too much to ask? Jesus.