did you ever think about what it would be like to die?


will it be fast


and painless


or


will it be slow and lingering, lying on a hospital bed, looking out the window at a baseball field and tiny house?



will you know it's your last moment

that in a day from now your lungs won't work, your heart won't beat, and the government will give you a death certificate.


a coffin is made.


arrangements are planned.


will you know you're dead?



will you be able to float around gently


watching people steal things from stores


or maybe even spy on your crush in the shower?



can you say that your life was incredible



that your existence touched at least one person


and because of you...



another person was greater....


when you are dead


will you be able to remember the cold days you drank starbucks


the hot days you stuck to the leather seats of a car as you got out to lie on the beach


fingerpainting a sailboat and then coming home and watching marshmallows float in your hot cocoa


all the good movies, funny movies, heartbreaking moments, staticy phone conversations, strange people, expensive bills, new shoes


will your life repeat itself



or will

it just


happen once



and never be remembered again...