I haven't been on in a while due to the fact that my life has been turned upside down.
I come here to escape and to enjoy a few friends one in particularly who I have known since childhood.
Now I am to understand that everyone is underground because of some ongoing bullshit war.

So here is my Big ol' fucking Rant

Said friend has been and always will be a righteous human being. As with most humans our points of view change according to progress in life. Since people are one dimensional on JS you are really incapable of understanding what one has been through and how it has shaped us as people. As with most we like our family one minute and want to slap the crap out of them next. Knowing someone truly means walking in their moccasins and feeling every aspect of their being, not so easy..huh? My friend and I grew up in a community that was nothing short of a Gothic novel.
Our lives were shaped by alcoholic, unrelenting, selfish people who at times made their children pay the price for their unhappiness.
So if in fact we don't always seem together enough for ya'll too fuckin' bad. We are lucky to be ALIVE. No we haven't always liked our Mom's, or Father's,and our children have hurt our feelings and our X husbands are ignorant pricks whose whole existence was to make everyone else pay for their Fucking unhappiness. You see they had to take shit their whole lives so they found an easy target in their wives and children. We paid the price. Victim, it's a word that doesn't extend to my friend. It may have been at one time, yet growing as a person makes you soften your point of view and forgive even if you can't forget,or gain strength in who you are. Sadly, when we as people don't get the proper response we seek, we lash out, creating a void of extreme unhappiness for ourselves and others.

Come on people, who doesn't hide behind something or someone. No one likes total exposure, somethings we need to keep to ourselves (as it should be). So if someone disappointed or disappoints you WELCOME to adulthood. I have yet to see the perfect person.

I don't know why the gauntlet was thrown down,but what did it solve? Did it cure some deep seated anger? Some unrelenting hurt? To what end?

So my friend and her children will continue to grow closer, heal old wounds, and figure each other out. The alternative is too bleak, admitting when your wrong is a show of strength, not weakness.

Oh and by the way..can I please be back in the loop and read entries again?