When: December 2010...

Where: My kitchen table

Why : Damned if I know

The end of the year, 2010. Seems I haven't been on here

very much. I think partly it's that I haven't had to much

to say or that life takes bizarre liberties with me and no

one would believe me.

Cold weather in Florida has brought on my favorite

sport. The bad jacket parade. Yep,it's back with a

vengeance. I really need to start photo documenting this

ritual. I'm sure it's only funny too me yet it's none the

less amusing.

The year has somewhat sped by. As I watched from

the sidelines life has shifted and changed. Re-birthing

itself into another form. One that I'm not all together

comfortable with. With no real choice in the matter, I

trudge on. Sometimes merely a spectator.


YC graduated with a major in Communication

Science(Interpersonal communications) and a minor in

psychology. Within a scant few months she landed with

Abercrombie & Fitch as a manager. Proud parents we are.

She's actually using her degree, money well spent.

It was our first Thanksgiving and possibly Christmas

without her here. Weird and somewhat discomforting I must

say. The ole homestead seemed a little to quiet, a little

to empty nested. Blessed we have the OC & MC close by.Our

grand-babies nearby only 10 minutes away.

Christmas has always been a big deal in our clan.

Shopping, presents, wrapping,cooking, decorating....

Now we are silently passing the torch to the next

generations. We watch as they make their traditions with

their young ones. I look at my grand-babies eyes. Reflecting

on their mothers at these ages. I see them in their

babies' eyes. Complete wonderment at the decorations,

lights, music. Anticipation at it's finest. We embarked

on the Holiday Gift Shoppe with our oldest grandchild.

Papa Daddy & I helped him pick his gifts for his family,

the ones he loves. It was brilliant.

Papa Daddy, my husband, my friend. We are coming up on

26 yrs. together.. No small feat. We've grown up

together. Healed our individual wounds and persevered.

Love him....

I have faced my battles this year. I have ignored others.

I have stated before I won't debate my political beliefs or

my spiritual ones. I believe. Simply put. I swear like a

truck driver and smoke cigarettes. I also help others and

believe in the Trinity. How can you believe in a God who

allows awful things to happen? Did he allow it or did we?

God isn't 7-11 yet he is available 24-7. Three wills,

perfect, permissive, free. Guess where most of us land?

Free will.Makers of our own fate. Allowing life to sweep us

along. Like we're not aware of the possible outcome we

face. Now it's God's fault..right? Most choose to do the

things we do without thinking of the outcome. Bad parents

hell bent on their own needs, drunks who drink, drug

addicts who drug it up. All choices, yet help is always

there and usually ignored. Some are just evil, some just

too selfish. Not God's fault, only choices.Ignore him yet

call on him in the worst moments...odd. Maker of your own

fate right? That includes the people in your life.

Your choices have and always will effect them.

It's a crisp 52* in S. Fla.. I am so digging it. I'm off

to visit my OC, to help with the babies.

My thoughts and my feelings..Mazel