I was reading through this online journal of mine today after reading through all of 2003 and most of 2004 of Steven's online journal, doing that thing that writers inevitably must do. I compared, and mostly, I tried to learn. His journal really tells a story. And it pretty consistently has a tone to it, a feeling I suppose, of serenity, with only a few exceptions.

I have learned one thing about myself during this review of my online journal. I am an anxious person. Or least I have been recently. Since the journal is only a few months old, and my paper journals are strewn every which way at the moment (and so not reference-able), I can confidently claim that this is a recent development. But I do think I'm coming out of this overly-anxious period. I'm conscious of the fact that I tend to have Crazy Ideas (tm) only when I'm feeling particularly anxious and in need of a hug. They are a good outlet, a good source of thought, and sometimes they do result in some sort of productivity for me, leading to better situations and fun adventures (albeit of a smaller variety).

So this is a status on Crazy Idea #721 (I think that's the right number), Move to Australia. I'm giving it up. I can't come up with the funding. It's just not going to happen. And besides that, my gut is telling me that although my reasons are good, and my motivations for doing so are understandable at the very least, it will not end the way I would want it to.

Plus, there are plenty of places here with sunshine and beaches (and even the occasional mai tai). And it's not like I live a horribly long ways away from a foreign country. Canada is fairly close. And Seattle is almost like a foreign country. *ducks and covers*

If I really feel the need to escape, I'm sure Joshua L. down in West Palm Beach would be glad to have me come for a brief visit. And Jenni's parents would be glad to see me, too, I'm sure. Not to mention St. Leo's. It'd be nice to visit the school I'm applying to, even though I'd be attending online. The fact that it's online makes me happy, despite the lack in computer courses in their MBA program (am I the only one that sees this as really really odd?). It increases my potential mobility significantly, leaving open the door for further adventures, and further adventures always make me smile.