I quite often wish I wasn't me. Seems like so many of my qualities are at odds with each other. I'm generally tender-hearted and want to share myself, but I'm also quite shy and reserved. I'm very customer service oriented, but I tend to shy away from conflict. I'm conscientious, but easily embarrassed.

And so, how does a shy, tender, embarrassed person create a place for himself? Seems like I routinely find where I don't fit, rather than where I do.

And I'm not in a major mood funk right now. It's more just a sadness and frustration that I seem to fit almost well enough in so many places, but never really seem to belong.

And there may be a fair amount of self-sabotage involved. But if there is, it just adds to the list.