We went to San Diego this weekend to my bro Stuart's house for Stephan's 1st b-day. My goodness! They live in a 3800 sq. ft. house. It was huge! We couldn't believe how nice it was. And it's new. Laid out beautifully. Boy, I'm the queen of fragments today. :-P

We left wanting more. Wanting a big house for ourselves. Wanting the 50" HDTV. Wanting nicer cars and nicer electronics and bigger and better everything. I hate this dissatisfaction with what we've got, when we really have so much. I hate this struggle with wanting and loving things and thinking that my life will be better. Sure, a bigger, better car will help, but it's not necessary. Sure a bigger, nicer TV would make movie watching and video game playing the bomb, but we enjoy those things already. I feel like if you fall into the trap of buying "stuff" all the time, you'll never be satisfied. There's always something bigger, better, newer just around the bend.

There is one "want" that I'm not willing to compromise on though: a house. That is why we will leave California when we can. I love it here, don't get me wrong. But what we want more than anything is to have a house and a yard and a great church/school for us to grow in. Unfortunately, we can't get the house here. And the ultimate hold on us living here is living near my family, which is hugely important. Since we won't be able to buy a house here and be close to my family, we will live near Scott's family in Missouri. I don't know how long it will take for us to finally move, but I do believe that's our next destination. And if we hate it, we'll move back. It's funny how getting married and having a child can totally change your perceptions and really make you focus on what's truly important.