not too many weird dreams lately. it's the "daydreams" i'm dreaming of that are keeping me awake at night.

saw the doc on friday. he prescribed ambien, which is kicking my butt right after i take it. i'm walking around like a drunk, then i go to bed, and i sleep, but it seems i can't sleep past 5 or 6am at all these days. whassup with that?

and then there are the things and people that wake me in the middle of the sleep, however few hours it might be.

husband thrashing about, neighbors in upstairs condo stomping around at 1:30am (the husband goes in at 3, she goes in at 5), the full bladder, the night sweats.

even on weekends, i can't sleep past 6 lately. i guess i'll get as much as i need, but really, i'd love to lay in bed and sleep for a full 9 or 10 hours one night.

still, my early morning today gave me the opportunity to see a full moon setting behind some hauntingly shrouded clouds. that was sweet.

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my baby girl is having BFF troubles. again. middle school. ugh. i remember it well. i don't think girls are ever as mean as they are in middle school. and, i think that's the time in our lives when our hearts start to become extremely vulnerable, especially if one is very tender hearted to begin with like she is.

there are 2 boys at her school that she likes and they both like her, of course. one of them "asked her out" yesterday. she was so embarrassed she pretended she didn't hear him and just walked away.

i said "sweetie, do you remember that there's a dance next friday?" and she said "oh my god, are you serious?" and i said "yeah" and she said "what am i gonna do?????" and i said "damage control. go to the other boy that you like more and, since he and boy #1 are friends, ask him if he will ask boy #1 if you heard him right, that he asked you out. then boy #2, who you really like more, will have the opportunity to say nooooo, don't go out with him, go out with me instead."

she got the cutest look on her face, eyes turned huge, and a wicked smile spread across her lips.

"oh my god, mom, that's brilliant!!!"

"yes, sweetie. i know. i AM good for some things, ya know?"

yeah, i know. it's a little evil, but hey, this IS middle school. i'm trying to teach her to think "outside the box".

*heh*

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today i'm going to clean 2 houses. if, that is, the dog that lives at the first house i clean doesn't eat me alive.

the second house is my dad's neighbor. i dated his son a couple of times in high school. he was 2 years older than me, and i had no idea how much more "experienced" he was. i was 16, i had no idea that 18 year old boys were doing "that" back then. i thought it was all just a lot of talk, so i didn't believe it.

boy did i find out wrong, and quickly. he damn near raped me in that house. i haven't been back to it since, so this should be funny, 30 years later going in there.

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tonight i think i shall go and see my friend who had the baby 2 weeks ago. i haven't had the opportunity, since i wasn't feeling well, then baby girl was sick last week, and i had to work sat and had a nasty headache all day long.

tonight should work, tho. this baby is gorgeous. her daddy was kind enough to send me a bunch of pic's, at least.

i can't wait to get my hands on her.

*sigh*

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i hope all my peeps have a lovely day.

xoxo